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welcome. whatever.
you get to read some.
you get to learn some.
i get to write.

you are desperate.
i am desperate.
we get to accept that as life

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.a n g e l.

once upon a time, an angel was sent to earth. she didn't like humans. she despised them. so one day, god gave her a soul and took her wings. she suddenly felt hatred, loathe, anger, pain and suffering. she prayed to god to take her soul and give her back her wings. but god told her, "learn to be a human, and you will be an angel again. i will give you back your wings, and take you back to heaven. but you have to accept how it is to be human first." so the angel lived a lifetime on earth. she realized that being a human is better than being an angel. so one day, when god finally took her to judgement, she pleaded to let her live another life on earth. "it doesn't matter if i no longer have my wings, or if i can no longer experience eternal happiness. learning to sacrifice is what has given meaning to my life now." god immediately broke into a smile. he gave the angel back her wings, but also gave her a soul.

.i n t r o.

You are my all my everything
You are the light when the dark closes in


.d i s t r a c t i o n s.

as if you don't know already...
.jaika.jae.jake.leejinhae.kimmie.
.super junior addict.
.dong bang shin gi addict.
.ISAK and EVAN fangirl.
.jaejoong .junsu.
.k-pop.TOHO.




.links:

Cinderella
♥ SE W910i

♥ Siberian Husky
jaejoong's cooler
♥ T-Concert DVD
that Tohoshinki Black Shirt
♥ DBSG character shirts

flats
♥ JanSport backpack
Hancock tickets
Batman premiere tickets
dakki pillows
TITUS wrist watch band
--not TITUS, though ♥ external hard disk 100++GB
♥ credit card

Hero-Style cross earrings
Xiah-Style earrings
Yehsung-style headphones pendant

.d y s l e x i c.

♥Music♥

.bed time stories.

||♥|| Sweet Melancholy
||♥|| The Underground
||♥|| The Gangster Prince ongoing
||♥|| Presidential Daughter: It's A Beautiful Thing ongoing
||♥|| Classroom Diaries
||♥|| Lost In A Trance:CD II
||♥|| Beach House ongoing


.s u g a r d r o p.

|| March 2007 ||
|| April 2007 ||
|| May 2007 ||
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|| July 2008 ||
|| August 2008 ||
|| September 2008 ||
|| October 2008 ||
|| December 2008 ||


.t i t l e s.

On Being a Fangirl
Revamp! Relive! ...and Survive.
a misunderstanding
a happy girl -- a dream so weird
dude. you thought wrong!
why are there frogs on my page??!
a new look.. but supposed to be on hiatus.
finally
hmmm
vacation is here!!


.e x t e r n a l s.

lady lucks
|| dan || gerty ||

cyber
||jenn ||
|| marga || nadz ||
|| edline || jhocel || khleine ||



.t a l k s.




.credits:

[FONTS DaFont]
[CODES fern*]
[LAYOUT DESIGN Lavendertutu]


Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Red Shirt

Title: Red Shirt

July 5, 2008

Mood: Spazzzzzzzzzzzzz. Content. Fulfilled. And hints of fangirling.

Listening to: Audios (and videos) from the 1000th Episode of Pops in Seoul

Did you look for me there? I saw tons of people. I even saw you.They asked me where I was seated. I couldn’t answer them. I was, after all, all over the place. I couldn’t stay at one place, I couldn’t get my butt stuck at one seat (or step –even a space on the floor) nor could I stay put just like what the usherettes were shouting about. No. I was fangirling. No one can stop me while I fangirl!

So. What exactly am I talking about? You read what I was listening to? Yeah. I went there. In the flesh with my cousins. We arrived at the Manila film Center at about 2:30 in the afternoon. There were already a lot of people crowding outside, waiting to be let in. And so we waited. Like everybody else. (By the way, when we were in the shuttle that’d take us there, we met other fangirls. No we didn’t make friends with them, we just like, yeah, met them.)

Back to the story. We were in red. just because we love the color, and because Cassiopeia Philippines required all people listed under them wear red. We didn’t mind. We were actually excited, and because of that, I kind of decided on one big thing. We’ll get to that later.

Getting inside, some of the usherettes were handing blue stickers, (but like, we were wearing red, and you’re giving us blue stickers. Are you kidding us??? *No offense*) telling us to vote for our favorite artist. We kind of didn’t understand her at first, but when we saw the board, we kind of got the hint. We ran to the nearest unnie there, and asked for stickers. We didn’t think twice. We stuck them at the group whose faces were no longer visible. We were, after all, wearing RED. Two votes among the hundreds for Dong Bang Shin Gi.

So, when the event started, I was shouting at Apple telling her that no matter what, I’d go down there (we were originally seated at the very top) and take pictures and videos. I’d like to take as many as I can. For myself, for my cousins, and for my lovely sister who’s in Batangas.

Isak sang I Turn To You, originally by Christina Aguilera. She wasn’t able to hit all the high notes perfectly, but hell, she’s a joy to listen to. Even if the humongous speaker was blaring behind me, it didn’t hurt my ear at all.

Up next was Evan, who sang a song I don’t know. (was that his song? I only know It’s Okay to Cry) anyhow. I love him because he kept on going to OUR side of the stage, which was at the left. (Here, I’ve already gone up to fetch Apple and back again to settle at that part of the hall.) so yeah. He was like THIS close. You can just imagine with the quality of video I got (which is not very good, but I’ll blame it on the lights. T_T) at first, the unnies there won’t let us get close, but eventually they did. So I got closer views of Evan. Side stories, two fangirls were in front of me. They were giggling and all. When Evan raised his arms, (you know what happens when someone does this) yeah, his boxers showed. So, back to those two unnies. They looked at each other, then shrieked. Hahaha. Of course I saw that too. (pervie me~) I took a picture!!! ROFL.

Yada. Evan sang three songs, the first one that I don’t know, and then This Love, and lastly, kyah` another one I have no idea about. (I need to research more on Evan. I feel guilty +_+) so that ended his performance. He was a special guest, by the way.

Oh. I met a long lost online and offline friend. Edline was there, with us at the front.

Then, Isak danced. I wasn’t able to get a good video of that dance (well, if you think my video was good enough. Haha) but it was VERY sexy and seductive… errr. “F” hahahaha. I SO LOVE HER!!! After her dance, the Emcee asked for participants from the audience to dance with Isak onstage. Edline wanted to, but she wasn’t near enough the stage to get picked. I think. After Isak’s dance, though, the unnie there was shouting at us, asking us to go back to our seats. “If you don’t vacate this area, it’ll sink! Lahat tayo maiipit sa ilalim! Please lang! go back to your seats! We don’t want to die here!” said the unnie. Haha. Apple and I left that area asap. We don’t wanna die there. LMAO.

We retreated to our seat at the very back area. Yeah. We’re that good. +_+ there were fan performances, and games. One, Michelle is her name, I think, won the quiz. And she took home like 3 posters, two or three CD’s and kyah~ lucky girl!

“Pare, nag shopping ba siya sa YES! Asia! Andami niyang iuuwi ahh!”

They had a bit of question and answer. Before the event, there was this board outside where you can post questions for Isak and Evan. I had my share there, but I’m not telling what! Haha. So. Most of the questions were about the current status of the two, if they were dating or if they were single. Haha. Then one asked for Evan’s age. And Evan was, “Nineteen~” and everybody screamed their heads off! I was one of them!!! Kekeke.. which I regret, because we didn’t hear what he said next. Anybody correct me, was it, 1988???

And there. Before the ending of the event, Isak sang one more song, Umbrella. she dedicated it to the Filipino fans, and she kept on saying, “I love you, Philippines!”

Sadly, Div wasn’t able to reach MFC on time. but no worries, we had a lot more after the fan meeting!

Right when we were about to leave, actually, we missed two taxis already. Because the drivers kept on picking up other passengers even though we stopped them first. But you know what? We’re kind of thankful for that.

We originally wanted to go home immediately after. But then MOA sounded a lot better. So we sat there. At the bottom of MFC.

WHEN THIS PURPLE BUS ALMOST SQUISHED US!

It stopped at the center of MFC, inching itself closer to the grand staircase. We were just looking at it, from our spot, when suddenly people screamed, and started running up the staircase.

ISAK AND EVAN WERE DESCENDING THE STAIRS!

Time check: 5 PM

Yada. No second thoughts, I ran closer. Inching myself in between the purple bus and a van. I was kind of lucky, you know. There’s almost no soul there. AND LIKE THE DOOR OF THE BUS WAS LESS THAN A METER AWAY FROM ME. I saw Evan, waved at him, jumped up and down, before he finally entered the bus. I lokked behind me to check if Div and Apple were still standing beside me. But they’re kind of far. Then Div pointed behind me, “SI ISAK OH!” and yeah, as they say, the rest was history. I waived at her, when she entered the bus, she sat at our side of the bus (Evan was sitting behind her). Still waving to the people there, giving this heart shped out of her hands. AND WE’RE NOT TAKING PICTURES! Apple had her cell focused to take pictures, but she’s too star-strucked to take one! So Div shrieked, “PICTURE-an MO KAYA!” well, Apple did. With just one, though.

SO ANYBODY WHO HAS A PICTURE OF ISAK ON THAT BUS WITH REFLECTIONS OF THE PEOPLE THERE, PLEASE OH PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME! I’LL LOVE YOU FOR THAT!

And we were too hyper to care if people were staring at us for fangirling too much. I even missed that girl who was wearing the TOHOSHINKI shirt I love so much (the black one, with purple cross??? Any kind soul who’d want to give me something like that??? +_+ ).

And we were finally able to grab a cab. Reaching MOA, we decided to go to StarBucks, to just, you know, celebrate our fangirling moments! We entered that door, not the mall entrance, just the entrance for SB. But once inside, we can’t find seats. Div even said to just buy there, and look around the mall. But I complained saying that I’m too tired. And this guard inside said, “Pagkaalis nila, kuhanin mo yung table. Bawal kasi yan sa labas.”

So we kind of just went outside to look for seats (those outside SB, but still inside the mall). And yeah. We were standing there. Looking at other girls we assumed as fans, too.

Then Div said, “OH MY GOD ANDITO SILA!”

Time check: 5: 25 PM

I actually thought OTHERS! You know, others. Hahaha. That was funny.

Anyway, when it finally dawned to me that Div was referring to ISAK and EVAN! I can’t see them at first. Actually, I was looking at a different direction! But then Div twisted me here and there until I saw them, less than 5 meters, STRAIGHT AHEAD. I spotted Isak first, because SHE WAS LOOKING AT US AND SHE WAS SMILING!!! I seriously made a 360. And I kinda think Isak thought of me as someone amusing enough to be retarded. O_O omg. So yeah.

Div wanted me to go there and asked for autograph, but like, nobody was bothering them. THEN. Because, when a girl in red approached us, she asked us if we’ve taken pictures and we said no. we even asked her if we can and she said yes. I asked her if she has taken a picture and she said yes. So we immediately went to their table.

Of course I wanted to ask for an autograph, and a picture with her too! But there were already a group of ghirls there with us. And Isak’s assistant (I think) was waving no more pictures. I then decided that maybe I should ask Evan instead. But then again, a group of girls were already asking for his autograph. I turned to Div and saw that she was pleading one last picture of Isak. (she got it, by the way.) and after that, isak stood up. I knew immediately that I shouls aske for her autograph.

Don’t get mad at me *fangirl soul attacks*, but I kind of cornered her for a signature. When she was standing in front of me, NO HUMAN APART, a Korean guy, probably one of them, was shaking his head at me. But I kind of did something like this.

“ISAK, JUST ONE PLEASE! JUST ONE!”

She took the picture and pen from me, and signed.

Repeat.

SHE TOOK THE PICTURE AND PEN FROM ME AND SIGNED.

I turned to my cousins (who were behind me) to take a picture, but I guess they were too star strucked to do that, and I kind of thought that it’d be too rude of me.

And then, she returned it, and I thanked her oh so very much.

Yeah. Never in my life did I thought of ever approaching a GASOO and ask for an autograph like a crazy fangirl!!!

Things change, I guess. But yeah. Too much excitement in a span of less than 30 minutes.

We spazzed for like a few more minutes. Oh yeah, they left SB after that. So we grabbed their table for ourselves.

One word: obsessed.

Anyhow, I kind of felt guilty that we were partly the reason why they left. We kind of disturbed their peaceful break and relaxation. I have to apologize to Isak and Evan for my rude behavior.

ANYONE TELL ME A WAY!!!

So yeah. I used to think before that stalking fangirls are really very rude. I mean, it isn’t really very nice of them to do that, disturbing other people’s privacy. But you know what?

When you see your idol, someone THAT pretty, it’s kind of hard to think straight.

It’s hard to think before you act.

And as Div said, it’s hard to THINK. Period.

We went to the Manila Film Center. We watched the Fan Meeting. We enjoyed ourselves. We were able to get pictures and videos. I was able to ask for an autograph! I’m happy.

Then yeah. I forgot to say that every girl who approached us, asked, “Cass?”

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